It is official.
I no longer recognize who I am......who I am becoming.
I have always been the type of person to hang in the background, not seeking attention, not getting involved.... Just going through the motions of life.
Something has changed. I have changed.
I guess it began with Coaching Emily's Cheer Squad. It wasn't something I elected to do on my own, but was volunteered into doing. I thought several times of quitting, (chickening out) but was too timid to quit.
I am SO glad I didn't!!
I still feel awkward at times, like at the game this past Saturday..... I felt as if all eyes were on me, and I really didn't have any business being there. Especially when I got so hot I came very close to passing out. I'm not sure that was due to my weight though... I think it was because I had been so sick the week before, and was still recovering.
But now, other changes are happening. I'm reaching out to people more, attempting to make new friends. I volunteered to be Room Mom for Emily's class, or to donate time to the classroom. I don't know that I will be selected, but for me to volunteer shows how much I have changed. I'm going to look into joining the PTA as well.
These are all things I wanted to do before, but never had the courage or gumption to pursue them. Now I am........
I really don't know who I am becoming............ this is all new to me.
~But I like her! ~