It Hurts When You Fall.....

I was doing so good

for a while,

I was cooking and baking

and NOT sampling.

I avoided temptation,

and kept my focused and determined.

And then I fell off the 

Diet Wagon.

Hard.

Daily Inspiration...... Will Power.

So, SO True.....

Last night at 3:00am

I got up while the kids
were all sleeping
and made some
White Chocolate 

Covered Oreo Cookies,

and White Chocolate 

covered Pretzels to give

to the kids as Christmas gifts...

It was SO tempting to snag one... 

or two.

Just to make sure it tasted

o.k., of course ;)

Weigh In - Round 2 Week 2

I lost 3.2 lbs this week.

Woohoo!!

I'm not sure how this coming

week's weigh in will turn out...

I haven't decided if I will

stay completely on plan on

Christmas Day or not...

IF I do go off plan for the day

it will ONLY be for that 1 day.

I just can't let that 1 day

turn into 1 week.....

Mom said they are telling their

Medifast patients the same thing...

Basically, enjoy your Holiday, if 

you decide to eat Christmas Dinner 

with your family, don't beat 

yourself up over it, just 

get right back on plan the 

next day.

Daily Inspiration - A CHALLENGE

I'm re-writing my story...... 

Are you?

Slowing Down.....

My Weight Loss has started

to slow down..... which

I knew would happen.

But I still should come 

out this week with a 

pretty decent weight loss.  

 

Slowly but surely........

The best way to do it

I suppose. 

At least, that is

what I have been told. ;)

6 Months From Now....

I must remember this during

this Christmas Season as

I am baking Santa's Cookies...

Weigh In - Round 2 Week 1

I did not get the big numbers 

I was hoping for.

I ended week 1 with a 7.2 lb loss.

I'll Take That!!

I may not have hit 12 or 15 pounds

but I still had a good loss.

I'm happy with that.

I had heard you do not see

the 12 & 15 pound losses 

like you do your first week

on Round 1 of Medifast,

so I was half expecting it.

The thing for me to remember

is not to get wrapped up in 

the numbers, but to remember

that regardless of what the final 

number is at the end of the week

the IMPORTANT thing to keep in 

mind is that the numbers are

going (and STILL going)

DOWN!!!

A Runner I Am Not..... yet.

Last night I went for a walk.

I came SO close to backing out....

my usual walking buddy was not 

going to make it so I would be alone...

in the dark at the high school track.

AND I was in the middle of a cute

Christmas Show on T.V.

But I made myself go and I am

SO GLAD I did!

I didn't stay long, just 40-45 minutes...

But I got in two miles.

4 Laps around is a mile, so I 

walked laps 1-3, jogged lap 4,

walked laps 5-7, and jogged

most of lap 8.

This may not seem like much

to a seasoned runner, or someone

in shape, but this was awesome for me!

Day 5 Down 6 Pounds

Just a quick update before

I go to bed...

Today ends Day 5 on Medifast

and as of this morning I am

down 6 pounds so far...

Day 1 went great...

Day 2 I was slightly hungry....

Day 3 I was hungry ALL. DAY. LONG.

I went to bed at like 8:15 because I

was out of meals, and still hungry.

But the next morning I had dropped another

2 pounds which totally made it worth it.

I only have two more days to go

so I don't think I'll see as big a 

loss as I was hoping for....

But even if I stop at a 6pound loss

for the week, I'll be happy :)

And THIS Is Why I Love Medifast.....

I jumped on the scale 

this morning for my

Morning Naked Weigh In

and I am down slightly...

 

Granted, it is not much

only 1.8lbs and that 

is water weight,

BUT.....

It's DOWN.

on Day 2. 

And after watching the

scale go up and up,

it's thrilling to see the proof

positive that it is now

heading in the right direction.

 

Of course, Once the diet gets 

underway 1.8lbs might be

a typical loss for the entire week.

The first week on Medifast

you usually lose quite a bit...

I'm assuming the same will happen

on my second go round.

So far..... it's looking good :)

Day 1 Complete....

Day 1 is complete.

Aside from a couple of hiccups,

it was a great day!

Hiccup 1: TOM. enough said.

                  Hiccup 2:  I ate my Lean and Green late.

      I like to get it in early, but it was

              after 8:00 before I finally got to eat it.

             Hiccup 3: I did not get all my water in.

Day 1, Round 2 Starts.......... NOW

Day 1 of Round 2 starts NOW!!

I'm SO RELIEVED to be back on Medifast!!

I really did miss it.

My 'Morning Naked Weigh In' this morning

WAS NOT FUN!!!

I am so ashamed to even SAY how much 

I gained while I was off my diet.....

But.... I made a commitment to blog 

openly and honestly. 

So here goes.......

This Is Not How My Story Will End....

I came across this image this morning

while browsing Pinterest.

I SOOOOO needed this message.

I started a post earlier but didn't finish

titled "In Another Lifetime"...

listing all the things I wish I had or 

had done in this lifetime... 

such as make better decisions,

take care of my body instead of 

abusing it.  Live in the mountains 

or on the beach...... etc.

I didn't finish because it was rather 

depressing, and I was starting to 

really feel down.  I decided to 

browse Pinterest instead and

this came up.

I can't undo the past, and I may

never live high in the mountains 

or on the beach......

But I CAN make better decisions

from this day forward.

And I CAN make what life I have

left an AMAZING one....

My New Addiction....

My new addiction is Pinterest.

OH.  MY.  GOSH!!

I Loooove that Site!!

I have found SO MANY 

Awesome ideas on there!!

From Recipes, to Organization tips,

Crafts I want to make, to Home Decor ideas.

I cannot say enough how much I LOVE it!

I Am Not A Number On A Scale

Tomorrow's the 1st, which means

my order will go in tomorrow.

Then it is just a waiting game for

my Medifast Food to arrive.

Once it does I will once again

be on track and LOSING weight!!

I am very excited about starting again!

I remember the first time I started my 

diet, back on January 3rd.  I was nearly

300 pounds!! That is so hard to believe now.....

Hell, it was hard to believe back THEN as well.

I'm BAAAAACK!!!!

I have been MIA for a while now.....

My husband had emergency surgery back 

in August and had his appendix removed.

We went 3 weeks without a paycheck and 

it nearly destroyed us financially.

He is the only one working....

I had no choice but to get off Medifast.

Week 33 Weigh In

What a Stressful Week!!

Earlier in the week I was at 196.2

but when I weighed in yesterday 

I was back to 197. Ugh. 

I also started TOM this morning

so part of that is weight retention. 

Not a good week :(

Week 32 Weigh In-

Week 32 Weigh In

Things have been EXTREMELY hectic lately.

In fact, they were so hectic I COMPLETELY

forgot about weighing in on Sunday. 

and Monday.

My Grandfather is in the hospital 

and not doing well at all.

Cheer stuff has also kept me VERY busy.

I've been very preoccupied lately.

I finally remembered to weigh in this morning.

While I am not sure what my "official" weigh in

was on Sunday, this morning I was at 197.

Not a good loss.

But my ankles have been swelling lately

and I have not been getting all my water in.

I'm hoping for a better week this week.

Week 31 Weigh In -

I lost 1.4 pounds last week
finally hitting my goal of 

getting UNDER 200!! 

Woohoo!!!!

My next  two "big" goals? 

1. Weigh less than my husband.

2. Lose 100 pounds.

I'm getting close to both!

ONEderland!!!

I had set myself a goal of 

reaching 199 by August 1st.

Yesterday was my official 

weigh day

and I was at 200.2

I didn't think I would hit my goal

but I jumped on the scale this 

morning and I was at 

199.0!!!!!!!!!

I DID IT!!!!

Woohoo!!!

This is going to be a 

GREAT DAY!!!

Week 30 Weigh In

This week I weighed in at 200.2

That makes a 3 pound loss for the week

and a total loss of 78 pounds. 

Shaping Up To Be A Good Week!

This is shaping up to be a good week!

This morning I was at 200.8!!
So far this week EVERY MORNING
the scale has dropped a little bit more!!
Coaching Cheerleading is giving me
great workouts during the week!
But not so hardcore that it hinders my weightloss.

I'm HOPEFUL that I just MIGHT
hit my goal of being BELOW 200 by August 1st
but I'm not holding my breath.

Even if I do not hit that goal
I'm still going to have a good
weight loss this week.
And for that I am grateful.

Week 28 and 29 Weigh In -

I didn't get a chance to post

last weeks Weigh In.

So here it is below:

Week 28 - down .4lbs. Ugh.

Week 29 - down 2.8 lbs

On Saturday I was down 3.2 lbs, 

but on Sunday (Weigh Day) the scale

had gone up a little. 

I am SO CLOSE to 

ONEderland!!!!

Woohoo!! 

I don't think I'll meet my 

August 1st goal of being

below 200.....

But I'll be VERY close!!!!

Week 27 Weigh In -

This week's Weigh In

was better than LAST WEEK's

but it still wasn't great. 

- 2.2 Pounds.

That puts me at 71.6 Total Loss so far.

Week26 Weigh In -

Blah.

I was only down .4

But I did start TOM this week

so I'm retaining water Big Time. 

What The Hell Was I Thinking?

So... I mentioned in an earlier post that 

I am the Head Coach for my daughters

Peewee Cheerleading Team. 

And I am really having fun with it. 

I've spent nearly every day choreographing

our Cheer Routine and making up 

arm motions to new Cheers.

Then I had my daughter record me

so that I could see how the arm motions 

of the new Cheer I made up looked like.

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!!?? 

I look HORRIBLE!!  

Yes...... I have lost 69 pounds. 

But HELLO!!!!

I still have 84 more to go!!!!

And I have to get up there in front 

of all the girls and the PARENTS

and teach this dance and cheers to the girls?

Oh dear......

 

I do not look as good as I feel.

Not even close!!!

I'm committed now. 

There is no backing out.

I will have to get up there in all my 

wiggly jiggly glory and teach

the dance and Cheers

to 24 girls while parents look on. 

Pray for me......

Week 25 Weigh In -

I lost 3 pounds this week.

That puts my Total 

Weight Loss at 69!

I've got 5 weeks to

lose 10 pounds in

order to meet my 

August 1st goal...

Which is to be in

ONEderland (below 200). 

Wish Me Luck!!!!

Week 24 Weigh In -

I only lost .6 this week.

Ugh.

But I am retaining water again.

On Monday I was down .8 for the week.

On Tuesday I went walking and running

and Wednesday morning I had GAINED 

2 pounds!! It was still there on Thursday.

(I know it isn't actual "weight" but water

because taking in the amount of calories

I am it is impossible to gain that much

weight. And I didn't cheat at all).

But it's still frustrating.

Friday I was back down to my weight

of the week before, and Saturday the scale 

stayed the same.  I was expecting it to 

be my first week EVER to NOT lose weight. 

But this morning it had dropped .6

LESS than a pound, but still a loss.

YEAH BABY!!!!!

I found out last night I have been

selected as the HEAD COACH

for my daughters Peewee Cheerleading Squad!

I am SO EXCITED!!!!

and nervous......

Last year was my first year to Coach, 

and at 278lbs I was so self conscious 

about my body.   I always felt like I was 

being watched and judged. I thought parents

were probably wondering why I was selected as

one of the Coaches.

I couldn't even get on the floor and stretch 

with the girls.

It was my wake up call. 

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I Have Lost an Elephant's Penis!!

I Have Lost an Elephant's Penis!!

Yep!! You heard me!

Those bad boys weigh about 60 Pounds!

As of this morning, I've lost 66 so far!

Try strapping one of THOSE on your back

and carrying it around!! 

(Thank you "A" for bringing that to my attention) :)

I Came SO Close To Cheating

Our oldest two kids are at their Dad's house

for the first part of the Summer.

And our youngest two have been at their

Grandmothers house for the past week.

So we have been Kid Free for the 

first time in 12 years!!

They come back next weekend.

Since this was our last Kid Free weekend

in who knows HOW long, I wanted to do something

DIFFERENT. 

Something we would NEVER normally do. 

Something FUN and EXCITING!

 I had told my husband I wanted to do something

CRAZY.  

Like get drunk

and smoke cigarettes. 

But being on a diet...

Alcohol was out of the question.

And I don't smoke. 

Week 23 Weigh In -

This week was a fairly good weigh in.  

I lost 3.2 pounds for the week.

That brings my total weight loss so far to 

65.4 pounds. 

Just 13 more pounds to go and I will

be in ONEderland!!!

FINALLY below 200!! 

I can't WAIT!!!!!

Week 22 Weigh In -

I finally have Internet again!!

The tech came out late yesterday and 

got it fixed.  Something about it not 

being grounded....

Last week I lost 1.6. 

Bringing the Total to 62.2

Not a big loss, but it is still a loss!

 

On Monday I had dropped another pound,

and on Tuesday another...... so this week's

weigh in is looking promising!

Fingers crossed it doesn't go up again :)

Ever Wondered What 1 Pound of Fat Looks Like?

THIS is what just 1 lb of FAT looks like.

WOW!! 

I've lost 60.6 of these so far!!! 

Woohoo!!!!!

Week 21 Weigh In -

OH HAPPY DAY!!!!

I FINALLY got my Whoosh!!! 

I lost 4.8 this week!!!

Total loss so far 60.6!

I was up and down all week, 

so it was very frustrating.

Monday I was down nearly a pound.

Tuesday I was up a pound.

Wednesday I was down slightly

and Thursday I was up 2 pounds! 

Saturday I was at a 2.8 loss for the week

and this morning I had dropped another 2!! 

Woohoo!!  

I hope it continues through out the week! 

Week 20 Weigh In -

Yet another small loss.

Only 1 pound.

But a pound is still a pound.

And as my friend always tells 

me, That is 4 sticks of butter. 

I haven't had a chance to go

and get my measurements taken,

but I plan on doing that Tomorrow

or Wednesday.  I will update with my 

measurements as soon as I have them.

I'm hoping, even though my weightloss

has slowed...my measurements will

show that I am losing inches steadily.

Week 19 Weigh In -

Week 19 was another small loss

only -1.4

Putting me at a total loss so far

of 54.8.

I have to admit I was 

a little frustrated.

But I'm glad to still be losing.

And every week, I consistently lose.

There has never been a week

where I HAVEN'T lost anything.

I've been thinking about possibly

trying the 4&2 plan on Medifast.

I'm currently on the 5&1.

(5 Medifast meals, and 1 Lean and Green)

On the 4&2, I will have 2 Lean and Green

meals and 4 Medifast meals.

I discussed it with my mom, who works 

for Medifast, and she said that I can

do the 4&2 plan, but I may not notice

a difference on the scales.

Week 18 Weigh In -

This week I finally had a decent

Weigh In.

-3.2 pounds!! 

For a total loss so far

of 53.4 pounds. 

Woohoo!!! 

3X - 2X - XL

I was doing laundry today,

and while folding my husband's T-shirts

I suddenly got the urge to try one of his 

XL T-Shirts on, to see how close I am 

to being in an XL.  

IT FIT!!!!

I couldn't believe it!! 

When I first started Medifast

 I was in a size 3X!

I was still wearing some 2X 

clothes, but they were tight. 

 

And there I was wearing an 

XL

And it FIT!!! 

I didn't have to stretch it out

like I used to do my 2X shirts,

it just FIT!! 

 

It really made me realize how

far I have come.

 

And you better believe

I am STILL wearing that 

XL

T-shirt Now!! 

:)

11 Key Insights To My Success So Far

This morning I took time out 

and looked back on some 

of my previous posts.

Here are some of the key things

to my success so far that

I have learned throughout

this journey.

1. Giving in to temptation gives 

only a few moments of gratification, 

followed immediately by a deep sense 

of regret and worry until weigh in.

Week 17 Weigh In -

This week I lost 1.4lbs.

Which brings me to a 

total loss of........

50.2 Pounds!!!

I was disappointed with yet

another small loss this week

BUT I am ecstatic at 

FINALLY

reaching my 50 pound goal!!!! 

And I weighed again this morning...

and I dropped another

1.8 pounds!!!

Maybe that is a sign

that this will be a 

GOOD WEEK!!! 

:) 

F$#&%@G Water Weight... Grrrrr.

My feet and ankles have been swelling

since mid-last week. 

And I have no idea why. 

I am very careful with my 

sodium intake, and

I'm drinking LOTS of water.

Yet, each night, my ankles

look like this.  

And you can just imagine what 

effect it is having on the scale.

HOT DAMN!! The Girl Can Run!!

I am shocked.

At myself.

Friday I walked 4 miles, 

jogging a little bit of it.

Sunday I walked just under 2 miles,

running most of the last lap.

Bad weather forced me to quit.

Monday I walked/ran another 4 miles, 

and I did the same again tonight. 

Week 16 Weigh In -

This morning for my 

official Weigh in, 

I only lost .8 for the week.

Not even a pound.

But I'm not letting myself get 

too down about it.

I know that I have been

retaining water, because 

my feet and ankles have

been swelling slightly.

So I have high hopes for 

my weigh in next week.

Somebody Get Me Some Pain Meds - PLEASE!

I am SO SORE today!!

Last night after my 

daughters Softball game

a friend and I went to

the school track and 

walked for a few hours.

I have no idea how many

loops we made around it,

because we talked the entire

time which really helped the

time fly by.  Twice, we made

ourselves run.

17 Years of Shame Come To An End.

I am only 2 pounds away from 

reaching my 50lbs LOST goal!

The time has flown by so fast!

I began my weight loss journey

on January 3rd. 

A New Year....

A New Me.

I can't believe how far I have come

in such a short time. 

And I'm not referring

to just pounds.

I still have a long ways to go....

I need to lose another 105 pounds 

before I reach my goal....

Week 15 Weigh In -

This week I lost 5.5 lbs!!!

Booyah!!!

Total Weight Loss So Far: 48! 

I'm hoping to hit my 50 pound goal next week!

Woohoo!!!

Safe For Now -

Just a quick post 

to give an update on

my Diagnostic Mammogram.

I AM CANCER FREE!! 

Woohoo!!

Me In All My Wiggly Jiggly Glory -

I bit the bullet this morning

and Posted Pictures of me

here on the Blog. 

ugh.

I HATE them! 

My last photo taken I had

lost 20 pounds. 

My intention was to take

new photos every 4 weeks.

Somehow that didn't happen.

I do need to take pics again

because I have lost another 

20 pounds. Actually, 22.5.

I Suck As a Tooth Fairy

I do not have a great record as a tooth fairy.  

It's not horrible...... but it's not perfect.  

Last night was no exception.  

My son came out of the bathroom
after taking his shower, 

and showed me the tooth he had just lost.  

I said "Wow! You'll have to be sure and put that under your pillow".  

He left mumbling something about hoping the tooth fairy 

would leave him a $20 bill.
(YEAH RIGHT!!! )  

The night before, My daughter had a friend spend the night, 

and my husband had set up
a small tent in the living room
so the girls could "camp out". 

 Earlier that day I had told the kids
they could sleep in the tent that night. 

NOT realizing the tooth fairy would 

be CRAWLING her fat ass
in there to retrieve a tooth.

Week 14 Weigh In -

This week was so frustrating for me.

About halfway through the week

my Wii Fit said I had lost .4lbs.

By Friday,  I had not lost any more weight.

I was VERY disappointed.

So I was not expecting much when

I went for my Official Weigh In today.

But Lo and Behold 

I lost 3.5 pounds this week!!!!

Woohoo!!!!

I have now lost 42.5 pounds!!!

My mom told me that this is common.

That sometimes your body holds on

to the weight until that last day or two

then it suddenly drops.

She said that is why they recommend

people NOT to weigh themselves 

throughout the week.

After a couple of disappointing weigh ins 

lately, I am THRILLED with my loss this week!

Batter UP!!

Yesterday my daughter had her 

first Softball "Game". EVER. 

It was actually just a 

"mock scrimmage" against

one of the other teams in her age group.

(7-8yr old)

The girls did very well!

Especially considering that this

is the first year for most, 

if not all of them.

The team they played had experienced 

players that have played together since T-ball, 

and has already competed in an all-day

tournament this year.

Our girls have only had 4 practices so far.

EVER.

My daughter has only had 3, 

because she was sick

and missed one practice.

It was fun watching them.

Our girls had NO CLUE what they 

were doing, it was like watching 

chickens running around with their

heads cut off.

Dear God: Please Save My TaTa's

Yesterday I had to go get my first Mammogram.

Not fun.

First.....I'd like to say

that I think all men should

periodically have to go get

their penis's smashed.

Before getting the girls 

manhandled and smashed 

flat like a pancake,

the girl doing the mammogram

had told me she would show

me the images when she was done.

She didn't.

Instead she gave me some boobies

to play with and practice on.

There were 3 of them on a board.

One breast had no lumps.

One was a fibrocystic breast.

And the other was a breast with lumps.

She left the room

to show the radiologist 

my results.

Week13 Weigh In -

This week I lost 1.5 pounds.

That brings my total weight loss so far to 39 pounds.

39!

Soooo close to 40! 

Death of a Wonky Scale -

 I mentioned earlier in a previous post

that my Mom had bought me 

a scale at a Thrift Store.  

I named the Scale

My Wonky Scale. 

It was not exactly accurate, about 5 pounds off....

and it was very HARD to read.

Well...... 

About a week and a half ago

I woke and as I had been doing every morning

I went to the bathroom to jump on the scale. 

The  scale was GONE!  

Week 12 Weigh In -

I had a MUCH better Weigh In this week.

I lost 3 pounds! 

We also took my measurements.

I lost 13 inches this past month.

So total weight loss so far: 37.5

Total inches lost so far: 47.5

Medifast ROCKS!!

Week 11 Weigh In -

Week 11 Weigh In was NOT great.

I didn't get much exercise in 

(mainly from being sick)

AND I started my Period.

I only lost half a pound.  

But.....

A .5lb loss is STILL a loss.

So I can't be TOO terribly upset.

I am hoping to do better this week.

Weight of the Day

My mom picked me up a scale at a thrift store.

I purposely, did not have a scale at home...

But now that I have one.........

I find myself Weighing in EVERY morning.

I KNEW that would happen.  

On all my other Diets,
I weighed each morning right after getting out of bed.

And it was AWESOME
when I saw the scale go down a few points.  

If I dropped a pound, even better.

Seeing my weight go down

always inspired me for that day to do even better...

But I was DEVASTATED when it would go up.  

Or when it was at a stand still.

After days or weeks of doing everything right,

and my weight stubbornly remained the same...

Week 10 Weigh In -

I had the BEST Weigh In yesterday since my first week on this Diet!!!!

4 POUND LOSS !!!!

WOOHOO!!!!

THIS DIET ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!

Snot, Sweat, and Cough

I finally got some exercise in today!!

WOOHOO!!!!

I'm still not 100% well, but for the first time in a week and half, I got in enough exercise to work up a sweat.   I did a little bit of Wii Fit, but I still get winded really easy, so didn't go as hard or long as I usually do.

Afterwards the kids wanted to play on the Wii.  My youngest daughter wanted me to do a Dance Workout Game with her.  How can I say No? 

I told her I would do as much as I could, but I was not feeling well, so wasn't sure how long I would last.

This new Dance Workout game is the GOLD'S GYM DANCE WORKOUT for the Wii.  

It was a lot of fun! I had never tried it before, so wasn't sure if it would be something I could do.  We both had fun, though.

You choose a personal trainer, add in your personal info, such as age, height, and weight, and then you have to answer two questions.  You have to choose what your main objective is, whether it is to lose weight, tone muscles, or become more physically fit, etc.  It also asks you to estimate on a scale from 1-5 how physically fit you feel you are right now.  It takes that information and develops a program for you.  I am starting out with a 3 day program.... I'll see how it goes.  

I selected my current physical level at a 1, but while I did work up a sweat in my workout, I think I could have been pushed a little bit harder.  I may have to change my level tomorrow and see what difference that makes.  

For now.......I'm going to bed, and I am hoping to be feeling more like myself tomorrow.  I will be SO glad when all this chest congestion, cough, and sinus pain/pressure is gone. 

Week 9 Weigh In -

I wasn't expecting much of a Weight Loss this week.....

And I didn't get it.

I was sick all week....

so I didn't get in ANY exercise.

None. 

But luckily, just by staying on plan with my eating

I still lost 1.5 pounds.

That brings my total loss so far to 30 pounds.

Floor... Please Swallow Me NOW

I'm sure we've all experienced it before.  

A comment made to us or about us, that although meant in all innocence.

cuts us deeply.

This happened to me today in Walmart.  

Oh, I can remember a time, not too long ago, when this happened to me quite often.

ANY mention of my weight would bring on the tears and humiliation. 

For awhile my husband walked on eggshells tiptoeing around the subject of ANYONE's weight, 

afraid I might take offense and break out into tears.  

He even tried to refrain the kids from saying the word "fat" in front of me..... regardless of who or what they were talking about. 

 but if they ever mentioned the "F" word around me,

from the corner of my eye I would see him motioning silently to them 

or giving them the stink eye, then he would act all innocent when I caught him doing it.  

So I started talking about my weight.  

I started making comments, so that my family would be at ease discussing weight issues in front of me.  

Over time, it no longer hurt if something was said. 

I even began making jokes about my weight to my friends, 

maybe trying to say something before anyone else could....

and eventually, I could even laugh along with everyone else at my own expense.  

But my Weight isn't my only issue.  

Snotty Nosed Brat

I have been sick since Monday. 

As a result, I have not had any exercise this week....

At All.

It is now Thursday, and it feels like this cold is settling in my chest. 

I really need to get some exercise in, and may try to later.....

but I feel like crap.  

I'm a snotty nosed brat right now that doesn't WANT to exercise.

Or would it not be wise to do so? 

Should I just push through it? 

Or do I just rest up, in order to get well faster?

I have no idea how this will effect my weight loss this week. 

This sucks.

I hate being sick.

Week 8 Weigh In-

Wow! I can't believe I have been dieting for 2 months now! 

I can't believe I have not cheated in those two months!! 

Since this was week 8, I not only weighed in today, 

but also did measurements. 

I am VERY happy to say that not only did I LOSE 3lbs this week (Yay!), 

I have also lost another 14.25 inches!! 

That makes 34.75 inches total lost since Jan. 3rd.

A Little Self-Exploration In The Shower

This morning, as I was taking a shower, I felt myself up.

And it felt good!

No.... Not like that! 

Get your mind out of the gutter! ; )

I was washing myself, and I noticed subtle differences in how my body felt,

So, I did a little exploring....

A little less in the stomach area.... slightly smaller boobs.......less in the butt....

The changes were small.

But THEY'RE THERE!!

I'm really looking forward to see what changes the next few months bring :)

Are You Flippin' Crazy!

My husband thinks that I should post pictures of myself on my blog. 

A photo journal of my progress along the way.  

And not just any pictures........  OH NO.  

Pictures of me wearing a Sports Bra and those tight ass short things they wear on the Biggest Loser!

IS HE FLIPPIN' CRAZY!? 

Does he really think I have the guts to let it all just hang out for the world to see?

I. Will. Not. Fail.

Tonight I watched another episode of Biggest Loser Couples.

What an inspiration these people are!! 

It is hard not to watch, and not want to jump up and start exercising...

I did not get a workout in today, and I'm kicking myself for it. 

It is SO easy to slip into bad habits.  If I let one day go, I might let another day go.....  

In my defense, the allergy medicine I took today knocked me out for most of the morning.  Even after waking I felt groggy. Then my cousin came over to visit and stayed until time to take my daughter to practice.  As soon as I got home, I put the kids to bed and started watching Biggest Loser, and then Parenthood. 

I SHOULD have came home and did my workout instead.  

I have both shows DVR'd so really there is no excuse.  

But isn't it SO EASY to make up excuses for ourselves? 

To find reasons why we CAN'T? 

Goodbye Fatty

I made it through my first Social Event (the baby shower) staying On Plan!

No Cheater here!!!

The cake looked delicious, and the M&M Cookie bars heavenly.... not to mention the sandwiches, punch, fruit bowl, and my Aunt's famous Pink Stuff.  

But I didn't eat any of it.  

NONE

And I didn't feel deprived!! 

I sat with everyone while they ate and chatted, and just enjoyed myself.  When the cake was being passed out, I politely declined.  When the woman passing the cake out tried to push the cake on me.... I politely declined.... again.  

Week 7 Weigh In -

I lost 2.5lbs this week. 

I MET MY FIRST GOAL!!

My First 25 pounds gone Forever!! 

And Just in time for Flip Flop Weather!! 

WOOHOO!!

Not sure when I will be able to get my reward,

but for right now, I'm content with knowing that it is coming.... :)

Do YOU Have What it Takes?

My husband and I watched the first episode of Survivor that we had recorded on the DVR.  

He would absolutely LOVE to be on that show.  Every season he talks about the strategy HE would play. The things HE would do.   He would love to get on the show and prove he has what it takes to SURVIVE. 

Me on the other hand....... 

HELL NO!!!!

No AC, no baths or showers, no ICE for my water, BUGS biting me constantly..... and only "gulp" FISH to eat?!!  Nooooooo Thank you!!  I wouldn't last a day.   I could DEAL with the no baths or showers.  I could deal with having to drink tepid water 'gag'.  I could deal with bugs biting and crawling on me.  But eat fish?  No Way.  That is the deal breaker for me.  

What can I say?  I'm a Weenie.

Baby Oh Baby!

Saturday is my cousin's Baby Shower.  

I already know there will be cake, punch, and M&M Cookies.  My mouth waters just thinking about it.  But I can NOT succumb and eat any! I weigh in on Sunday and I have worked TOO HARD this week to blow it one afternoon.  

Every day so far I have worked out on the Wii. Yesterday I really pushed myself and worked out longer than usual.  I was very hot and sweaty afterwards, but at the same time I felt SO GOOD!!  I have also been really careful on my condiment choices and Lean and Green Meals.  Mostly, I have eaten Egg Beaters for dinner every night.  Except yesterday when I made the soup.  

I'll just keep reminding myself tomorrow, while everyone is eating, on how good it will feel when I jump on the scale and see a loss. 

I feel really good about this week's weigh in.  I hope I won't be disappointed.

Crockpot Dinner

My mom makes a DELICIOUS Southwestern Stew! You can find that recipe here. Lately I have been craving some of it, but because I am avoiding any carbs, I can't make her stew, because of the potatoes.    

I planned on getting ingredients for a variation of her stew when I went to the grocery store last time, but forgot to do so.  

This week I have been eating a lot of Egg Beaters and Garden Burgers for dinner, and was looking for something different for a change. 

So yesterday, I decided to just make do with what I had on hand, and make a soup instead.  But all I did have was 1 package of frozen chicken, Cilantro, 2 Orange Bell Peppers, and 1 Yellow Bell Pepper.  I decided to give it a try anyway, but I was really worried about how it would taste.... 

Valentines Day

Valentines Day....... A day of Love, Devotion, and CHOCOLATE!

Every year for Valentines Day the kids always get loads of chocolate.  Between friends, relatives, and their class parties, it is like Halloween all over again.  This year was no exception. 

I thought Valentines Day would be harder for me.... diet wise. I haven't eaten any sweets in 7 weeks! Nearly 2 months!! And to make matters worse, I'm on my period.  A time when I am NOTORIOUS for eating an entire bag of candy.  Mostly Hershey Nuggets. YUM! 

I didn't figure I would be able to avoid the temptation of eating just one, teeny tiny piece of candy.  Especially if caramel or peanut butter is involved..... or Toffee.  I LOVE chocolate with toffee, caramel and/or peanut butter. 

Week 6 Weigh In

I did not have high hopes for this weeks weigh in.

Not that I cheated or anything, but there was several days that I did not get all my water in, and I only did my Wii Fit a couple of days...... if that.  On top of all this, I started my period on Saturday.  I was just praying for there not to be a weight GAIN. 

So imagine my SHOCK (and utter joy) when I lost 3 pounds!! 

  Looking back on the week, I realized while I did not set aside time to workout, there were, however, several evenings that I played JustDance2 on the Wii with the husband and kids.  I have to attribute my weight loss this week to that game...

About Face

Last night a friend (who is also doing Medifast) sent me pictures of her face from before Medifast, and a current picture now that she has been on Medifast.   We both are the same height and have a starting weight of about the same, and started on the same day.  She has lost slightly more than I have so far, but already her face is slimming up. 

I decided to take a face shot of myself and compare it to my "before" pics I had my husband take when I first started Medifast.  And  MY face has slimmed up some too!! My husband has been telling me that it has, but until I could compare the photos I didn't believe him!  I still have a long way to go..... but WOW!  I was SO thrilled to see a difference already! I knew I had lost several inches overall, but we didn't measure my face.  ;-)

"PLAY" TIME!

I am not an Exerciser. 

It is one of my biggest downfalls.  

I've tried in the past to start exercising but I always fizzle out. FAST.

Recently, however, my husband bought me the Wii Fit Plus.  

I think I've mentioned it previously..... but I can't say it enough.....

I LOVE it! 

I find myself pushing myself further than I would have ever gone on my own, because I want to finish the game.  It is like having a personal trainer.... except instead of someone standing over me hollering to Go Faster! Push Harder! It is my own competitiveness coming out to Drive me on harder, faster, and longer than I thought I ever could. 

I've never viewed myself as a competitive person.... but I guess I am.  Atleast...... I am with myself. 

Week 5 Weigh In -

Originally more snow was in the forecast for today (although that has now changed to rain).  I wasn't sure if I would be getting out of the house tomorrow, so decided to weigh in a day early.

I lost 2.5lbs!

Making a total loss of 20lbs so far.  Just 5 more pounds and I will have reached my first goal! Yay!!

We went over to my Grandmother's first, and Man oh Man!! She had Spaghetti and Cheese (a childhood favorite of mine), Fried Squash Patties, and Pear Cobbler!!!!!  I wanted some SO BAD, but suprisingly, I wasn't even tempted to cheat.  I want to win the lottery REALLY BAD, but that doesn't mean I'm going to go out and spend a lot of money on Lottery Tickets.... same principal.  But I was surprised at myself.  I learned that even though I will always WANT the non-healthy foods, I WON'T always feel deprived not eating them.  And over time my taste buds will change........ HAVE changed.  

I'm in control now of what I eat..... the cravings no longer control me.

What A Week! - Ice, Snow, and Exercise

WOW!! What a week it has been!! 

The kids and my husband have all been home since Monday Evening.  No work, and no school due to this CRAZY weather we are getting!  Growing up, I RARELY saw Snow.  Occasionally we would get an Ice-Storm but it was melting by the next day.  We got a record breaking snow for Texas last year in this area, and THIS year we have already had Snow TWICE!!! In Fact.....  

It is Snowing right now!!!! 

I love it!!! Sucks for the paychecks, but............ I'm a kid at heart. 

I LOVE SNOW!!!!!

Not everyone is crazy about being stuck at home though.... a/k/a my husband...  He gets just a little bit stir crazy... LOL.  

Today I Ate Pizza!!

Yep...... You heard right. I had Pepperoni Pizza for dinner tonight!!

No......I didn't get off my diet. No guilt here!! This was ON my diet!!!

I had read about a Cauliflower Pizza, and thought, what the heck. I'll give it a try. So I did.

And it was good!

I'll admit the first couple of bites were a let down. And although I knew it wouldn't taste exactly like the Pizza Hut pizza the rest of the family had, my tongue (out of habit) still expected it to. But after the first couple of bites, I really did enjoy it!!

I will definitely be making this again!!

You can find this recipe on my "Lean and Green Meals" Page or by clicking here.

Week 4 Weigh In

I lost 1.5 pounds this week, bringing my total loss so far to 17.5lbs.  

I was a tiny bit disappointed, but after worrying so much earlier today, I was just happy to have a loss this week!

Since this was the end of week 4 for me, we also did my measurements. I was pleasantly surprised!  I lost 20.5 inches overall.  I lost 4 inches just in my waist!! 

I also purchased a Wii Fit today so that I can start getting SOME exercise in. I am hoping this helps with my weight loss.  

I'm going to get my husband to take another full body shot, and continue taking pics every 4 weeks.  When I get enough courage I will post them on here...... maybe when I have lost a bit more. :-)