17 Years of Shame Come To An End.

I am only 2 pounds away from 

reaching my 50lbs LOST goal!

The time has flown by so fast!

I began my weight loss journey

on January 3rd. 

A New Year....

A New Me.

I can't believe how far I have come

in such a short time. 

And I'm not referring

to just pounds.

I still have a long ways to go....

I need to lose another 105 pounds 

before I reach my goal....

But as I reflect on

my journey so far

I am so proud of how far 

I have come.

And that is saying a lot.

For 17 years I lived in shame.

Shame of what I had done 

to my body. 

I withdrew from life

and my whole world revolved

within my closed doors.

I didn't get out and get

involved in anything because

I was too ashamed.

I always thought it was my 

weight holding me back.

But it wasn't. 

It was me.

I still can't believe I 

let my self get as big as I did.

But I've learned to forgive myself.

I've gotten involved in PTO and 

my children's sports, 

volunteering where I can

and I will not let 

ANYTHING 

hold me back any longer.

Not even myself.  

Even though I am nowhere

near reaching my goal.

And even though I am still

fat and obese....

I push myself to get out

there and DO SOMETHING.

To LIVE MY LIFE, 

even when fear and doubt

begin to creep back in, 

trying to sabotage my 

success.

I don't let it.

Not anymore.

I look back at my before

pictures, and even my 

current ones, not with 

shame anymore, but 

as a testament to how far

I have come. 

And how far I still need to go.