NON SCALE VICTORY!!

Yesterday I finally bought a new pair of jeans since having the surgery in October! I've been wearing the same jeans I had before surgery, but they look really bad now, way too baggy.  They aren't falling off yet, but the legs and rear end just sag.  I bought a size 20 Jeans! And they fit great! At my highest weight I was in a size 28 and they were tight....  I have to admit, the thrill of fitting into a size 20 yesterday was greatly dimmed looking at myself in that full length mirror.  Seeing my clothes sag on me felt great, it showed progress!  But seeing myself in a pair of jeans that fit, really showed me how far I still have to go.... not just to goal but to just looking decent in a pair of jeans.  And I've got a belly roll above my jeans line that is still there, that really bothers me.  I put on my saggy jeans again after trying on the 20's and noticed that in those jeans too, the roll is there, I just chose to ignore it.   I was a little down last night...... but I'm feeling much more optimistic today.   I'm not going to get there over night.  And while..... 51 pounds is a lot to lose, when I have THIS Much excess weight, it's not going to have as great an impact on me as it would on someone with less to lose. My husband suggested taking pictures each month so I can compare, which I really should have been doing all along. 

NON SCALE VICTORY!!

Last night when I was getting dressed to go to the gym, I grabbed one of my old XL T-Shirts to try it on, just to see how close I am to being able to wear it again. Guess What!?  IT FIT!!!!
YES!!!  I was so excited!  Later, on the treadmill, when I started feeling self conscious in front of all the people there working out looking all cute in their workout gear, I reminded myself that I was wearing an XL T-Shirt!! And that is coming from a 3X!!  I may not look all cute in my work out clothes now, or even FIT into the cute workout clothes yet, but I'M ON MY WAY!!

5 Non Scale Victories So Far...

I'm finding it's the little things that occur

throughout a day that most would not think 

twice about, that really allow me to "see" that 

I have lost weight.

I don't see it in the mirror yet.

I know some changes have occurred, but

I get overwhelmed with the enormity of what 

I still have to lose, because in the mirror....

I'm still VERY OBESE. 

Here is a small list of the "Little Things" that 

have been an A-HA moment for me. 

5 Small Non Scale Victories....

1.  Yesterday at work I Had 3 people tell me 

it was time for new jeans. They said the 

ones I was wearing looked like they were about

to fall off me. 

2.  I don't have to put my car seat as far back 

in my car to keep my stomach from touching

the steering wheel anymore. 

3.  I was able to bend down and tie my own shoes 

the other day.  In public.  Without performing great feats 

of acrobatics.

4.  It is much easier to get my socks and shoes on.

5.  When I'm standing and look down,  It doesn't look 

like I have two rows of breasts anymore.