Sweet Freedom? I Think Not.

 

Before weight loss surgery, I was a LOVER of Blue-Bell Ice-Cream.  If it was in the house, I could not stay away from it. After the surgery,  I could no longer have it.  I missed Ice Cream.  One day, I tried a few bites of my husband's Banana Split, and although I only had a few bites, it was a few bites too many and I started feeling sick.  I didn't go into a full blown dumping episode, (I didn't throw up and my heart didn't start racing,  I didn't eat THAT much of it) but I did feel very nauseous.  I learned my lesson.

Then one day, while grocery shopping, I found the  SWEET FREEDOM no sugar added Ice-Cream at the Grocery Store.  I checked the sugar content and it looked safe, only 5 grams in half a cup. So, I bought it! That night, we all dug into it.  I got a small 1/2 a coffee cup size serving.  It wasn't great tasting, not like the real stuff, but it was OK.... it was cold, it was creamy... it would do.  Until the Diarrhea struck.  Within 20-30 minutes of eating the ice cream, my stomach started to cramp up, and I had to race to the bathroom with a severe bout of diarrhea.  I haven't eaten any of it since.   It is evil.

Merry Christmas Eve!

Today is Christmas Eve and I had
 to work today. Blah. It wasn't quite so bad,
since we were able to leave at 2:00. 

I'm about to start making some
Peppermint Popcorn Bark

to pass out to family as Christmas Gifts
 at our family Christmas tomorrow. 

I thought Valentines and Halloween
were the "SWEET" Months....

The first of December, we all brought
 in stockings and hung outside our offices
or in our cubicles and throughout the month,
 everyone has brought in goodies to stuff our 

stockings with.  I left today with a stocking
 full of candy, which I will pass on to my
children's stockings tonight. And then today,
a co-worker brought in fudge for
everyone, another brought Peppermint Bark
and our Director brought in her famous Bark.
I ate just a little bit of the Director's Bark
to see what all the hub hub was about,
(and it was good!)

I tried eating just a tiny piece of fudge 

since I haven't eaten fudge in over 15 years

and used to LOVE the stuff, but it was WAY too sweet. 

At the end of the day, one of my co-workers
told me that she was reallystarting to see a
difference in me.  She said that every week

she notices a change and said she just
wanted to let me know she was proud of me. 
She said she sees the healthy choices
I am makingand the sacrifices and wanted
to let me know she was proud.

It made me feel good. 

Daily Inspiration...... Will Power.

So, SO True.....

Last night at 3:00am

I got up while the kids
were all sleeping
and made some
White Chocolate 

Covered Oreo Cookies,

and White Chocolate 

covered Pretzels to give

to the kids as Christmas gifts...

It was SO tempting to snag one... 

or two.

Just to make sure it tasted

o.k., of course ;)

Goodbye Fatty

I made it through my first Social Event (the baby shower) staying On Plan!

No Cheater here!!!

The cake looked delicious, and the M&M Cookie bars heavenly.... not to mention the sandwiches, punch, fruit bowl, and my Aunt's famous Pink Stuff.  

But I didn't eat any of it.  

NONE

And I didn't feel deprived!! 

I sat with everyone while they ate and chatted, and just enjoyed myself.  When the cake was being passed out, I politely declined.  When the woman passing the cake out tried to push the cake on me.... I politely declined.... again.  

Baby Oh Baby!

Saturday is my cousin's Baby Shower.  

I already know there will be cake, punch, and M&M Cookies.  My mouth waters just thinking about it.  But I can NOT succumb and eat any! I weigh in on Sunday and I have worked TOO HARD this week to blow it one afternoon.  

Every day so far I have worked out on the Wii. Yesterday I really pushed myself and worked out longer than usual.  I was very hot and sweaty afterwards, but at the same time I felt SO GOOD!!  I have also been really careful on my condiment choices and Lean and Green Meals.  Mostly, I have eaten Egg Beaters for dinner every night.  Except yesterday when I made the soup.  

I'll just keep reminding myself tomorrow, while everyone is eating, on how good it will feel when I jump on the scale and see a loss. 

I feel really good about this week's weigh in.  I hope I won't be disappointed.