Morning Naked Weigh In - Week 16

This was a pretty bad week, weight loss wise, but I still came away with a loss. All week the scale has not budged, and then finally this morning it was down 1.2 pounds.  T.O.M showed up yesterday, so that may be why it is so low this week. 

Morning Naked Weigh In - Week 11

This week I ended with a LOSS!

Woo hoo!!!

It was up slightly from yesterday morning

but I still ended with a loss.

Weigh in results this morning:

258.0

That's a 3.4lb loss for the week.

Total loss so far:  

42 pounds! 

YES!!!

Gastric Bypass - Complications and Recovery

Monday, October 28, 2013 I had my 

Roux-En-Y (RNY) Gastric Bypass Procedure done.

The doctor had said before surgery, there was  a possibility

that once he got in, depending on scar tissue, etc.

he might have to just remove the Lap Band 

and then let my stomach heal for a few months 

before performing the Gastric Bypass.

Another possibility, he said, was that if my lower intestine did

not cooperate, and would not move up to where he needed it

to, that he may have to perform the Gastric Sleeve instead.

Once he got in, The doctor found that

 I had a Hernia in my stomach.

THANK GOODNESS he was able to 

go ahead and remove the Hernia, remove the lap band, 

AND he was successfully able to perform the Gastric Bypass.

I woke in recovery HURTING.  

I don’t remember much about it, but I remember

asking about my heart. My chest was hurting, 

and it scared me because it reminded me of when I went in for 

Gall Bladder Surgery, and woke up in the ICU

with my Chest hurting, and found out my heart had stopped.

I don’t remember what they said about my Chest hurting, 

but all had gone well.

I think the hardest part about my first two days post surgery

 was not being able to drink anything.  NOT EVEN ICE CHIPS!!

I never knew your mouth and tongue could get THAT Dry.  

It was awful.

I didn’t get hungry or crave food.  

All I could think about was a glass of

ICE WATER!! 

...and I don’t even like water.  LOL.

When I was finally able to drink and eat ice chips  I was so relieved.

Unfortunately, however, I was limited to 30ml 

(or 1 ounce) every HOUR.

So… as far as getting my thirst quenched 

and my dry mouth solved?  Not so much.

I went home on Wednesday, October 30th.  

We waited all day to see if I was

going to be released, and finally shortly after 6pm, 

we got the news I could go home.

Knowing I was going to have trouble sleeping in our 

bed due to the pain in my abdomen,

my husband had gone to the Habitat For Humanity Re-Store

and purchased a recliner for $50.00. 

THANK GOODNESS he did!!

There is no way I would have been able to lay flat.

I spent all my recovery time in that recliner.

The day after I was released was Halloween.

A relative took the kids Trick Or Treating and my oldest

daughter stayed home to take care of me.

My husband was going to return to work 

the next day so had gone to bed.

Late that evening, after the kids returned home,

I began to hurt worse than I had before.

The pain medicine I was sent home with 

really wasn’t taking the pain away, either.

I had just finished doing the breathing exercise

 they instructed me to do with the aspirator 

they sent me home with, so thought maybe 

I had swallowed some air and it was gas making me hurt, 

so I took some gas medicine.

A little bit later, I started feeling very nauseous.  

I took my anti-nausea medicine but it didn’t help.  

My daughter kept wanting to wake my husband up,

but I told her to let him sleep, he had work the next day.

Around 9:00pm I started throwing up 

and finally told her to wake Dad.

He called my Surgeons office, 

and was given the doctor’s cell number.

But the doctor did not answer and wasn’t  returning the call.

My husband said he would wait 30 more minutes,

then he was taking me back to the hospital.

But 5 minutes later I was throwing up again. 

He said “alright, that's it, Let’s go”.

We went back to the same hospital I had the surgery in, 

thinking that they would be better equipped, 

having my records, etc.

When I got there, the ER Doctor didn’t have any knowledge of

Gastric Bypass, and kept asking the same questions over and over.

The hospital began calling the doctor as well, 

but he was not answering for them either.

The tried numerous times to reach him.

Luckily, the ER Nurse had worked in a critical care unit

years ago at a Bariatric Center, 

and was familiar with Gastric Bypass.

He thought I was experiencing the “Dumping Syndrome”.

I told him I had been very careful not to go over my

1 oz of liquid in the allotted time, 

but he said sometimes it happens anyway.

They gave me two different anti-nausea medicines, 

but it did not help.

FINALLY, the surgeon called back, and said to admit me,

take me off all fluids, (not even ice chips) again, 

and ordered a CT Scan.

Why Gastric Bypass

The decision to have Gastric Bypass wasn’t an easy one.

Years ago when I first considered Weight Loss Surgery,

I didn’t even want to consider Gastric Bypass, 

it was too invasive, too drastic.

I went to a Lap Band Seminar, 

and the doctor that hosted the seminar

(and ultimately performed my Lap Band procedure)

basically bashed the Gastric Bypass, 

pointing out all the negatives.

And at that time, it was not done by laparoscopy.

You were cut wide open to perform the operation.

And I admit, I didn’t take the time to research

 the procedure on my own.

After sitting through the lap band seminar

 and hearing how GREAT and SUCCESSFUL the Lap Band was, 

 It was a done deal.

But obviously, the procedure didn’t work for me...

The Road To Obesity

I’ve been Fat for 20 years.

20 YEARS.

That’s HALF my life!! I just turned 39 in October.

Senior year, 1993, I weighed a whopping 109 pounds. 

I graduated in May and married my high school boyfriend that July.

As soon as we got married I started putting on weight.  

6 months after we married, I found out I was pregnant.

I was 19.

I BALLOONED during my pregnancy, 

gaining a LOT of weight.

I thought it was temporary and in no time

I would be back to my pre-pregnancy weight.

But…14 months after my son was born, 

I was still at 170lbs , and discovered I was pregnant again.

With that pregnancy I only gained 30 pounds,

putting me at 200 pounds exact when I was 

admitted for labor and delivery.

I lost 15 of those pounds after my daughter was born.

A year later, after just four years of marriage,

my husband left me,

 one month after my daughter turned ONE and

9 days shy of my son’s 3rd birthday.

After my divorce, I lost around 30 pounds, 

putting me at 155. I fluctuated there for a while.

A little over a year later I met and then married 

my current husband, and the love of my life.

While pregnant with my Third child, another son, 

I once again BALLOONED,

putting on a lot of weight. 

After he was born, I stayed right around 230lbs,

During my fourth and FINAL pregnancy, (another girl),

I  gained little and ended the pregnancy weighing

exactly the same as I did before carrying her, 

but WEARING a size larger.

From 2002 to 2007 I had many, 

many failed diet attempts.

 At one time, on the Atkins Diet

 I got down to 200 pounds even.

I weighed on that Friday, 

and then over the weekend I got off track

on the diet, and GAINED.  

A couple of weeks later, 

I once again got down to 200 but  then I stalled, 

and never seemed to have the same success as before.

With the scale not moving, 

It was harder to stay strict and on plan.

  I then very rapidly gained back all the weight

 I had lost plus some.

I joined a gym and started working out

 but the weight just did not want to budge.

I worked out every day for a while, 

but eventually had to quit the gym due to a hernia surgery I had.

In 2007 I decided to have the Lap Band procedure

 done after talking to some women at work that had gotten it. 

I had complications with my port,

and had to go in for a second surgery. 

I never lost much weight with the lap band,

and I had trouble eating almost everything.  

No matter how small of bites I took, the food got stuck.

Sometimes after eating I threw up right away, and other times,

it took a while as my saliva would build up in my pouch

and start coming up.

 I never lost much weight with the band,

  and stayed constantly hungry.

Eventually, I began to gain again.  

I finally just had all the fluid taken out.

During those years, at one point 

I remember thinking that I was

fat, would always be fat, and that is just who I am.

Over the years my weight just kept getting higher and higher.

In 2011 I finally found a diet that worked for me.

I started Medifast and in 8 months, I lost 85 pounds.

I felt great.  FINALLY, I had found something that worked for me!

But the diet is very expensive, and due to financial reasons

I could not afford to stay on the plan.

From August 2011 to October 2012 I slowly gained back

50 of the 85lbs lost.  Then in October 2012, I went back to

work after being a stay at home mom for MANY years.

I thought going back to work would be better, having

more control over what and when I ate. 

After all, I could only eat what I brought with me.

Every day for lunch I ate a sandwich, no chips.

Sometimes I brought fruit 

(grapes, cantaloupe, honey dew melon, etc.)

or carrot sticks to snack on.  

I did good.

But….. with working, and my daughters cheer, it was always

LATE before I would be able to eat dinner.  

I was usually starving by the time I got home,

 and everyone else has already eaten. 

So I ate things that were quick and easy.

I didn't eat large amounts, 

but my evening choices weren’t always the healthiest.

The weight started piling on.

 I never thought in a million years

 I would ever let myself get to the point I reached.

I felt defeated. 

THEN…. 

My Dirty Little "Not So" Secret

It's been nearly a YEAR since my last post on here!

SHAMEFUL!!!

A lot has happened over the past year. 

And as I'm sure, many have guessed,

I gained ALL My weight back PLUS some!! 

I started blogging again this past September, 

but had decided to try starting a whole new Blog. 

Why?? I wanted complete anonymity.

One that was not linked with my personal email address,

or have my real name anywhere on it. 

Why??

I feel like my obesity is my dirty little secret

I try to keep hidden.

Obviously, those that know me personally and 

see my on a regular basis, know of it.

But there are those I went to school with

that don't know.

And I have always tried to be so very

careful of who takes pictures of me,

 TERRIFIED I will be "outed" 

and get tagged in a photo on facebook.

The only photos I have posted of myself

are Face shots from when I did lose weight. 

And then last May at my son's graduation, 

One of my ex-sister in law's, and former Best Friend

in High School posted a picture of me with her and 

her sister and tagged me in it titled "Together Again".

And even though I did not accept the tag, avoiding

it being posted on my wall, ALL those mutual friends that

we went to school with saw that picture on her wall.

One of my former classmates sent me a private

message on Facebook asking if I was pregnant.

I was humiliated.

I messaged back with 

"No....I've just gotten really fat".

He wrote back that he wasn't trying to be

rude, that he was just surprised because
I was never like that in high school.

I felt so exposed.

My "not so secret", secret was out. 

And now I have another Secret...

New Year Resolution...

A Runner I Am Not..... yet.

Last night I went for a walk.

I came SO close to backing out....

my usual walking buddy was not 

going to make it so I would be alone...

in the dark at the high school track.

AND I was in the middle of a cute

Christmas Show on T.V.

But I made myself go and I am

SO GLAD I did!

I didn't stay long, just 40-45 minutes...

But I got in two miles.

4 Laps around is a mile, so I 

walked laps 1-3, jogged lap 4,

walked laps 5-7, and jogged

most of lap 8.

This may not seem like much

to a seasoned runner, or someone

in shape, but this was awesome for me!

Day 5 Down 6 Pounds

Just a quick update before

I go to bed...

Today ends Day 5 on Medifast

and as of this morning I am

down 6 pounds so far...

Day 1 went great...

Day 2 I was slightly hungry....

Day 3 I was hungry ALL. DAY. LONG.

I went to bed at like 8:15 because I

was out of meals, and still hungry.

But the next morning I had dropped another

2 pounds which totally made it worth it.

I only have two more days to go

so I don't think I'll see as big a 

loss as I was hoping for....

But even if I stop at a 6pound loss

for the week, I'll be happy :)

And THIS Is Why I Love Medifast.....

I jumped on the scale 

this morning for my

Morning Naked Weigh In

and I am down slightly...

 

Granted, it is not much

only 1.8lbs and that 

is water weight,

BUT.....

It's DOWN.

on Day 2. 

And after watching the

scale go up and up,

it's thrilling to see the proof

positive that it is now

heading in the right direction.

 

Of course, Once the diet gets 

underway 1.8lbs might be

a typical loss for the entire week.

The first week on Medifast

you usually lose quite a bit...

I'm assuming the same will happen

on my second go round.

So far..... it's looking good :)

Day 1 Complete....

Day 1 is complete.

Aside from a couple of hiccups,

it was a great day!

Hiccup 1: TOM. enough said.

                  Hiccup 2:  I ate my Lean and Green late.

      I like to get it in early, but it was

              after 8:00 before I finally got to eat it.

             Hiccup 3: I did not get all my water in.

Day 1, Round 2 Starts.......... NOW

Day 1 of Round 2 starts NOW!!

I'm SO RELIEVED to be back on Medifast!!

I really did miss it.

My 'Morning Naked Weigh In' this morning

WAS NOT FUN!!!

I am so ashamed to even SAY how much 

I gained while I was off my diet.....

But.... I made a commitment to blog 

openly and honestly. 

So here goes.......

Week 28 and 29 Weigh In -

I didn't get a chance to post

last weeks Weigh In.

So here it is below:

Week 28 - down .4lbs. Ugh.

Week 29 - down 2.8 lbs

On Saturday I was down 3.2 lbs, 

but on Sunday (Weigh Day) the scale

had gone up a little. 

I am SO CLOSE to 

ONEderland!!!!

Woohoo!! 

I don't think I'll meet my 

August 1st goal of being

below 200.....

But I'll be VERY close!!!!

What The Hell Was I Thinking?

So... I mentioned in an earlier post that 

I am the Head Coach for my daughters

Peewee Cheerleading Team. 

And I am really having fun with it. 

I've spent nearly every day choreographing

our Cheer Routine and making up 

arm motions to new Cheers.

Then I had my daughter record me

so that I could see how the arm motions 

of the new Cheer I made up looked like.

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!!?? 

I look HORRIBLE!!  

Yes...... I have lost 69 pounds. 

But HELLO!!!!

I still have 84 more to go!!!!

And I have to get up there in front 

of all the girls and the PARENTS

and teach this dance and cheers to the girls?

Oh dear......

 

I do not look as good as I feel.

Not even close!!!

I'm committed now. 

There is no backing out.

I will have to get up there in all my 

wiggly jiggly glory and teach

the dance and Cheers

to 24 girls while parents look on. 

Pray for me......

Week 25 Weigh In -

I lost 3 pounds this week.

That puts my Total 

Weight Loss at 69!

I've got 5 weeks to

lose 10 pounds in

order to meet my 

August 1st goal...

Which is to be in

ONEderland (below 200). 

Wish Me Luck!!!!

Week 22 Weigh In -

I finally have Internet again!!

The tech came out late yesterday and 

got it fixed.  Something about it not 

being grounded....

Last week I lost 1.6. 

Bringing the Total to 62.2

Not a big loss, but it is still a loss!

 

On Monday I had dropped another pound,

and on Tuesday another...... so this week's

weigh in is looking promising!

Fingers crossed it doesn't go up again :)

Week 17 Weigh In -

This week I lost 1.4lbs.

Which brings me to a 

total loss of........

50.2 Pounds!!!

I was disappointed with yet

another small loss this week

BUT I am ecstatic at 

FINALLY

reaching my 50 pound goal!!!! 

And I weighed again this morning...

and I dropped another

1.8 pounds!!!

Maybe that is a sign

that this will be a 

GOOD WEEK!!! 

:) 

HOT DAMN!! The Girl Can Run!!

I am shocked.

At myself.

Friday I walked 4 miles, 

jogging a little bit of it.

Sunday I walked just under 2 miles,

running most of the last lap.

Bad weather forced me to quit.

Monday I walked/ran another 4 miles, 

and I did the same again tonight. 

Week 15 Weigh In -

This week I lost 5.5 lbs!!!

Booyah!!!

Total Weight Loss So Far: 48! 

I'm hoping to hit my 50 pound goal next week!

Woohoo!!!

Me In All My Wiggly Jiggly Glory -

I bit the bullet this morning

and Posted Pictures of me

here on the Blog. 

ugh.

I HATE them! 

My last photo taken I had

lost 20 pounds. 

My intention was to take

new photos every 4 weeks.

Somehow that didn't happen.

I do need to take pics again

because I have lost another 

20 pounds. Actually, 22.5.