Monday Is The Day!!

I have decided that I will begin the Medifast Diet on MONDAY!!

With a New Years Party for the kids to go to Friday, and the Bonfire we have planned for Saturday, I'm afraid I would just be setting myself up for Failure this weekend.   By Monday I will have my Box of Food, all the leftover goodies from the weekend can be gotten rid of, and it will be a fresh start.  PLUS, I really want to get my mom to Take my Measurements and do another "official" Weigh In on Monday, so I know EXACTLY where I am starting at on this plan.....

2011 Is   MY YEAR TO SHINE!!!!

Update -

My food is in, but I haven't been able to pick it up from my mom yet.  

I have been home sick with the Flu for a week. I'm still recovering. 

I have not been eating much lately, but over Christmas weekend I did not make the best choices on food.  I haven't been to the grocery store in a week and half.  So my husband went to town and picked up a Spicy Chicken sandwhich with Curly Fries from Jack In The Box.  It was SOOOOO good! I was STARVING!! LOL  I also ate a Taco Salad from Taco Delite, and had some of Spencer's Birthday cake a few times. Oh yes..... and I can not forget about the piece of Coconut Pie I ate Christmas Day. Yum!!

But I noticed today when I put on a pair of my "exercise pants" that they seem to fit better, so I must have lost some weight.  The pockets no longer bulge open, but lie pretty flat. Yay!! I have been really watching what I eat (minus this past week of course) for a little bit now, and I think it has been working. I will be picking up the Medifast food sometime this week once I am feeling better and able to go visit my mom to get it.  I'm really anxious now to get this diet underway. I want to see MORE results!! 

Me.....On a Diet

I've made the plunge.  I'm going on a strict diet.  I've already semi begun, but I dished out $100.00 on food items, and once they come in...... IT'S ON!

My mom went to work for Medifast.  She has lost over 70 pounds on their program, and I began a week and half ago doing a mock version of their diet using atkins protein bars, salads, and lean meats.  Mom can get their food items at a 75% discounted price, and can purchase up to $100.00 a month.  She explained that she would like to purchase some for her daughter, and her boss told her that was fine.  So, Mom will be my counselor,  I order my food through mom, pay her and she orders the food for me from Medifast.   It will take a week or so for the bars and such to come in, but once they do, I will begin the program.  

I can eat a combination of 5 bars/shakes/puddings/pancakes/oatmeals/etc. a day plus a lean and green meal.  I can also have 2 of their snacks such as pretzels that do not count as a meal if needed.  I will have to eat every 2 to 3 hours.  I'm hoping for quick results like mom had........  

I will blog about my experiences, openly and honestly, good and bad.  Maybe by blogging about my experiences, it will help me to stay on track as well.  Mom said the first 3 days are hard, but after that, the diet is fairly easy.

We shall see.......

Who Am I ???!!!!

It is official.

I no longer recognize who I am......who I am becoming.

I have always been the type of person to hang in the background, not seeking attention, not getting involved....  Just going through the motions of life.  

Something has changed.  I have changed.

I guess it began with Coaching Emily's Cheer Squad.  It wasn't something I elected to do on my own, but was volunteered into doing.  I thought several times of quitting, (chickening out) but was too timid to quit.

I am SO glad I didn't!! 

I still feel awkward at times, like at the game this past Saturday..... I felt as if all eyes were on me, and I really didn't have any business being there.  Especially when I got so hot I came very close to passing out.  I'm not sure that was due to my weight though... I think it was because I had been so sick the week before, and was still recovering. 

But now, other changes are happening.  I'm reaching out to people more, attempting to make new friends. I volunteered to be Room Mom for Emily's class, or to donate time to the classroom.  I don't know that I will be selected, but for me to volunteer shows how much I have changed.  I'm going to look into joining the PTA as well.  

These are all things  I wanted to do before, but never had the courage or gumption to pursue them.   Now I am........

I really don't know who I am becoming............ this is all new to me.

~But I like her! ~ 

If Only I Could Sweat It All Off....

I BURNED up at cheer practice today.  I got there early to video record Emily and one of the other coach's daughters doing a few cheers to put up on our website so some of the new girls can watch it at home to better learn the cheers.  

I feel like I sweated a gallon today.  I need one of those bras they advertise......"Friends don't let Friends have Booby Sweat...".  O.k. maybe the commercial isn't in those exact words, but you get the idea.  

As I stood out there in the blaring hot sun, sweating in places I shouldn't be sweating in, I thought to myself, if only that were the fat melting off me.  If only I could "sweat it off" I would stand out there all day.  Sure.....it's miserable, but wouldn't that be nice?

But alas....... I have to do it the hard way.  I have to actually work and sweat.  Sweating alone will not a skinny girl make.  

So.....tomorrow morning, bright and early I plan on getting up and doing cheer after cheer after cheer to get a good workout.  (I don't have an exercise video or routine to go by yet, and the cheers seem to work on my whole body).  

I guess it doesn't really matter what I'm doing......

so long as I keep MOVING. 

Sometimes You Just Have to Eat Cake

I have NOT been doing well this week.

My mom sent me home with her White Peach Home-made Ice Cream, and I can't stay out of it.  It is sooo freaking good! Not to mention all the left over Chocolate Birthday Cake from Lauren's party.

Food wise, I'm not doing too bad.  There is one small piece of cake left which the kids will devour today, and maybe 2 bowls of the Ice-Cream left.  Once that is gone,  it will be better.

I did some swimming this weekend, but not the workout kind of swim.  I haven't worked on any cheers in a while.  With all the kids here, it was impossible to.  But I need to start working on coming up with some more cheers, which will be a good workout.  It was last time.

I'm not beating myself up about eating cake and ice-cream.  Sometimes in life.....you just have to eat Birthday cake.....Enjoy a bowl of ice-cream now and then.

Just..... not everyday.

I LOATHE Public Pools

My husband wants to take the kids to the local public pool tomorrow.  He has taken them before and they had a blast.  It is great for the younger ones, because it has a Dragon Bridge they have to climb across, and it is has diving boards for the oldest kids.

He is wanting to take our 4 plus friends. It would be 8 kids in all.  With that many kids, he is going to need help.  Last time he took the kids I stayed home and worked on Cheer stuff. But I don't see myself getting out of this one.

I would really love to go.  It looked like a lot of fun.  But I LOATHE public pools.  I do not like getting out in my Bathing Suit in public places.  I have just started going into the lake.  Before I was always the idiotic woman at the lake, sitting in the lawn chair, in JEANS (because I do not wear shorts in public either) sweating rivers, watching everyone else have fun.

I made myself go into the water at the lake this year, because I reminded myself that it was for the kids.  They enjoy having me participate, and I think they feel bad when I sit out and just watch.  And let's face it..... the Lake area where we go, there is not a whole lot of bathing beauties strutting around with their perfect bodies in their skimpy bikinis.  Nearly everyone there has some weight/body issues happening... I just happen to be a little worse.

I found that once I focus on the kids, and push all thoughts of my looks, insecurities, etc. out of my mind, I have fun there!  Now if I could just do this at the public pool.  I have gone to a public pool before.  We went to Schlitterbahn 2 years ago, and I wore a bathing suit top and shorts over my bottoms.  I never quite got over my insecurities though.  I didn't get on a single ride.  I stayed with Emily in the kiddie pool the entire time, ensuring everyone that I was fine, and for them to go have fun.

Maybe if I had a better bathing suit it would help.  I need to get a new one, but to find a plus size bathing suit in my size that covers all the areas that I need it to, but still look decent is expensive.  And I just haven't had the money lately to go get another suit.  The bathing suit I have now is the boy type shorts on the bottom and then a halter type top.  But the top keeps riding up, showing my stomach, and I have to wear shorts to feel somewhat comfortable.

If we wind up going tomorrow, I will really really try to focus on the kids.  To keep telling myself "screw what others think" I'm not here to impress anyone.  I'm here for my kids, and that is all that matters....